So I was thinking today about how my head is full of characters. Beautiful, wonderful, exciting characters. But none of them have stories. How do I write the stories? Where are they? I sit and I write, I sit and I write, and all that comes out is pages upon pages of character description. I can't make these people do anything!!!

poem about no one

we ♥ it

she is a lotus
blooming in my throat
stretching and wrapping her roots
around my chakras
she is chamomile on my tongue
strawberry on my lips
this girl is the earth
pulling my feet down
and the sun light
that sinks into me
like teeth in the morning

anna melcon bond


"Some people hear the rule 'Write every day' and do it and don't improve. They are just being dutiful. That is the way of the Goody Two-shoes. It is a waste of energy because it takes tremendous effort to just follow the rules if your heart isn't into it. If you find that this is your basic attitude, then stop writing. Stay away from it for a week or year. Wait until you are hungry to say something, until there is an aching in you to speak. Then come back."

~Natalie Goldberg, Writing Down the Bones

~Submerged~

"Be in love
with your life."

~Jack Kerouac

I guess the phoenix was right...

I GOT A JOB!

I got the call at 8:30 this morning that Trinity University wants me on their HR staff. I can't tell you how much of a relief this is.

Thank you for all your prayers and wishes and positive vibes :)

Phoenix Rising

I dreamed of a phoenix rising -
red and yellow feathers like fire in the sky.
The sun made a halo around her head.

She went to a pool of water to drink.
A coyote sat in front of her -
angry and showing teeth.

She opened her great beak
and swallowed him.
I watched her fly away.

According to this website and several others, to dream of a phoenix is a good sign.

"In Greek mythology, the Phoenix was a bird with great beauty, splendor and longevity. The legend tells us that the Phoenix lived for five hundred years and then retreated to make a nest where she would die. She made a nest of aromatic twigs that would burn from the heat of its own body. The Phoenix is said to rise from its own ashes. It comes alive though the transforming power of fire and it lives again in full splendor. In the Middle Ages, the Phoenix was often used as a symbol for Christ, as he resurrected. This legendary bird is an archetypal dream symbol that brings us positive and powerful images of rebirth. If you dream of the Phoenix, it is most likely that you are receiving message from the unconscious that are telling you that new life and new beginnings are always possible. This bird is a reminder that we have internal powers of regeneration and that we have the power to change things for the better. As you are interpreting this dream, try to visualize a great bird rising up from fire and ash. It is a powerful image, whether produced by a dream or visualization."

Maybe she represents my journey. Maybe I will rise from the ashes. Maybe the coyote is another side of me. The side that is weak, lacking in ambition, deceptive, fearful. The phoenix swallows the coyote and flies away. The stronger part of myself rises above the weakness.

I hope this is true. I've just had a bit of bad news concerning a job I really wanted and worked hard to get. I didn't get it. I feel like I am on the verge of a mental breakdown. I hope I do see the phoenix rise.


Photo by: EHE1985

Things I Have Thought

~We are all connected in that we are all on different paths. I think that's extraordinary!

~Tonight I realized how full of abundance my life really is. I am surrounded by people who love me and support me, by people who bake me cupcakes and offer their home to me. I have friends to laugh with and family who help me out in times of need. I have a boyfriend who brings me presents because he loves me and thinks about me when we're apart. All of this is worth so much more than lots of money or a job. If I had those things and none of the people in my life, I feel I would be quite miserable.

~Photo from here